Flashback to October 20th, 2015 when I decided to remove my breasts as I carry the BRCA 1 gene Mutation. This is for all my BRCA sisters and women that have been through loss. The women who have been faced with the challenges that life throws at us. Women empowering women!
The nurse came in and told me that I was ready to go home and I could change into my zip up hoody and pants. As soon as the nurse took off my gown I panicked. Where were the bandages? Where were they? I can’t handle to look at myself, I looked awful……I didn’t know what to do. My husband saw me without my breasts, what does he think? How does he feel? Oh shit, have I made the biggest mistake of my life?
I broke down in tears of deep sadness at the new me. It felt so uncomfortable and terrifying to see myself look like that. I felt so ugly. I felt empty with another piece of me missing. How much more can I lose in my life?
They calmed me down, told me that it was normal, and I had bandages under my new chest, but it looked awful. I had these drains hanging from either side filling up with blood that I had to empty, I was devastated.
Nick, my husband, wheeled me out and all I could think of was, “Where is my mom when I need her?”
It was then that I remembered my promise to my mom when she was on her death bed, I will be okay, and I will take control of my own life.
I know many of you Women that are apart of this group have gone through something similar to my story being faced with so much loss in your life. But I want you to know that you are strong, powerful, courageous and inspirational. You are not alone in this journey and us women supporting one another is so important and empowering.
A BIG THANK YOU goes out to all of you beautiful souls today on #internationalwomensday. ?
When women support each other, incredible things happen.?
Sat Nam XO